Is it possible to be relieved and grieving about the same decision at once, or am I just tired?

Both, and tired on top. The relief is allowed to be there without making the grief fake. Want to talk it through or do you just need someone to say it's a lot?

Mostly just tired, honestly. Not ready to get into it tonight but thank you for asking

both is the worst kind. i'm around if you want to talk it through, no pressure